They say that the first step in solving a problem is to admit that you have one. I need help. I have a problem.
For a large part of recent times I’ve had easy access to something. In the good times and the bad times, it’s always been there, a constant, either right next to me or a short journey away and was always available to help me through.
And it was amazing. It was a problem solver, a comforter, a pick-me up and it looked simply resplendent as well. How could I not love something that seemingly offered everything?
The more I had, the more I wanted and, to be honest, the more I wanted the more I seemed able to get.
I realised at one point that things weren’t quite right. This wasn’t good for my health. I just had to keep going back though. I couldn’t go without and when I needed it, it was always there – tempting, alluring…
However, before I could do anything about my feelings, it had gone. The decision had been taken out of my hands and I was left in a state of shock. I was hollow. I didn’t know where to turn. Sure, there were plenty of other opportunities and alternatives, but they weren’t *it*.
In the end, if I couldn’t have 6 Wispa Golds for a £1 from the staff shop at work anymore, I was just going to have to buy a packet of caramel digestives for 59p instead!
On a serious note, I have never suffered from an addiction. People do, and I can’t begin to imagine how hard it must be to have to have something. Not only that, but that thing is sometimes as damaging to minds and bodies as the requirement for it. We’ve probably all felt bereft when something has been taken from us that we want but can no longer have, but knowing it’s out there, available and thinking that it’s an absolute requirement must be horrible.
As such, please visit Mind and, if you feel the urge, maybe make a donation? I’ve suggested Mind because they do work to help people with a range of mental health issues and I wasn’t able to find a charity that worked in all areas of addiction. It’s also a charity I actively support anyway.
I, being based in the UK, text MIND to 70660 to donate £3 after writing this post. That’s not a lot, but I have somewhere between 20-30 visitors a day and, if you were all in the UK and donated £3 to them, they could run a group therapy session to help 4-6 people for whom it would probably mean more than we could understand.
Help me if you can, I’m feeling down
And I do appreciate you being ’round.
Help me get my feet back on the ground.
Won’t you please, please help me?
Help! by The Beatles