Prepared And Planned

Have you had a good week?

This week I’ve been feeling a little low and maybe lonely.  Nothing too bad, it’s just that it’s that time of year again where I “celebrate” being another year older.  I used to like birthdays and, in a way, I still do, but the ones I tend to like are other people’s rather than my own!

I know it’s easy to look back on a year and see achievements, but at birthdays (which I realise are as arbitrary for this purpose as New Year, for example) I tend to see what I haven’t done and what hasn’t happened.  I’m not speaking about the things that I can influence – travel, activities, jobs etc.  I’ve never been in a relationship on my birthday or Christmas and, as sad as it sounds, I would like to be.  That sounds more romanticised than it should, but celebrating a special occasion with a special person like that sounds like something amazing.

The other reason I’m a bit low about this birthday is because last year I spent the evening of the actual day with my 3 favourite people.  This year I’ve lost 66% of those people.  Well, I’ve definitely lost a 33% and I still miss her.  It feels like I’ve lost at least 25% of another.  The other 33% is my brother.  That evening was the best and I loved it.

So I expect my birthday to suck.  But anyway…

I’ve been thinking about being prepared and planning ahead.  When Daily Post Pingbacks weren’t working the other week it somehow felt like it gave a freedom to write a bit more freely.  I know I don’t have to do the Prompts, it’s just that I enjoy them.  However, I think that what’s got in to my head is that I like the traffic and interaction that the pingback provides and that can stop me writing what I want because I don’t want to spam followers with a prompt reply and another post.

So I’m going to write a few posts that I want to write, a bit like when famous people write editorials in Sunday newspapers.  It’ll probably only be once a week and I hope it’s about a controversial news story.

I currently have nearly 40 drafts sitting waiting to be published or completed, which is far too many!

The other thing I’ve been dabbling with is reviews.  I’ve got about 6 lined up so far and it would be great if anyone can give me ideas of things they’d like me to test.  I’m thinking toys, gadgets, restaurants, places… But even doing those I’m aware how expensive this could become!  I’d obviously welcome feedback too.

The thought of being prepared also cropped up the other night.  I got home and fed Moo.  He eats underneath the window in the living room, and as I looked out I saw two dogs running down the road.  I went out to try to stop the traffic and catch them.

As I got there a beautiful blonde parked her across the road.  She got out and helped and we had a bit of a chat and she seemed awesome, and yet it only occurred to me as she left that I’d have quite liked to talk to her some more, but it never crossed my mind to ask for her phone number until she’d driven off.  She knows where I live so I’m tempted to put a sign outside the house saying “If that was you, please can I take you for a drink?!”

I wasn’t prepared to see an opportunity.  It’s weird because, as I alluded to before, I’m not wandering about aimlessly, I know what I want, I just don’t necessarily always realise the opportunity when it’s right in front of me.  I don’t know, maybe that just doesn’t come naturally but I wish it would!

Can anybody find me somebody to love?
Each morning I get up I die a little
Can barely stand on my feet
(take a look at yourself)
Take a look in the mirror and cry
Lord what you’re doing to me
I have spent all my years in believing you
But I just can’t get no relief,
Lord!
Somebody, somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

I work (he works hard) hard every day of my life
I work ’til I ache my bones
At the end (at the end of the day) I take home my hard earned pay all on my own –
I get down on my knees
And I start to pray (praise the Lord)
‘Til the tears run down from my eyes
Lord – somebody – somebody
Can anybody find me – somebody to love?

(He works hard)

Everyday
I try and I try and I try
But everybody wants to put me down
They say I’m goin’ crazy
They say I got a lot of water in my brain
I got no common sense
I got nobody left to believe
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

Oh Lord
Somebody – somebody
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Got no feel, I got no rhythm
I just keep losing my beat
I’m OK, I’m alright
I ain’t gonna face no defeat
I just gotta get out of this prison cell
Someday I’m gonna be free, Lord!

Find me somebody to love
Can anybody find me somebody to love?

Somebody To Love by Queen

 

Comments 11

  1. Birthdays aren’t supposed to suck. They are awesome I know how you feel about wanting to spend the day with someone special . Been there felt that. But it’s ok eventually things will fall in place 😀 and why don’t you publish those waiting drafts ? Would be glad toh read some. Also I love this song 😍 Take care

    • Michael

      Thanks for the message Rashim. Yeah, I agree, but I think since turning 30 I’ve not really enjoyed birthdays, which is weird because they’re just another day and I’m only really only one day older than yesterday!

      I have some posts scheduled for this week. I like to keep some drafts for when I’m lacking inspiration, I just didn’t realise I had that many!

  2. have to say i too have been sucked into the pingback thing too – despite my best efforts to not let views/likes etc guide my output, it’s slowly snuck up in priority again. def working on it though, and so like you, will also be trying to post a few non prompt related posts too!

    • Michael

      I actually have a whole post coming on the subject! Well, when I say “coming” it’s mostly still in my head at the moment but I have an idea anyway! The prompt is kind of a sense of being part of the Community I think, but I’m not sure anyone ever started their blog for that reason. I believe I’m following you, so looking forward to your work (as usual)!

  3. Liberty Henwick

    From a woman’s perspective, when I was in the dating game I so wanted to be asked out but felt awkward asking guys. It seems a bit unfair that it’s the guy’s job however it was me who told my DH that I wanted to marry him, that was after dating a couple of yrs! I hope you find someone who loves you for who you are and not for what you think she’d expect you to be. Good luck and keep us posted!!

    • Michael

      Thanks Liberty! Yeah, I think today with all the speak of equality of the sexes traditional things seem outdated to some, but they still seem “right” to me. I have some friends who got married after she proposed to him on 29th February (over satellite phone with its painful delays while he was in South Africa and she was in Scotland) and my brother’s now ex-girlfriend dropped very clear to hints to him that she’d like him to pop the question but he didn’t get his priorities straight (in my opinion!).

      I’m still thinking that the sign is a good idea!

      • Liberty Henwick

        I did read something somewhere once (!) in the context of marriage proposals that the vast majority of men only propose if they are convinced she will say yes. I think that speaks of a level of confidence and trust in the relationship, and him knowing where he stands. I’m not one for playing games and prefer openness and honesty, in which case you’d both know where things are going anyway. Make it a nice big sign!

        • Michael

          Yeah, I’m sure Fear of Rejection plays a part! My friends had been together over a decade and just hadn’t “made it official”. My brother was pretty much asked if he’d bought the ring yet!

  4. Doug Whitaker

    Good luck with the game of love. I have played it and undoubtedly, I do not play it very well. As for your song, thank you for sticking it in my head for the night. I read it three times before I could ever comment. And speaking of commenting, this is my first comment on any of these posts so I am thrilled that I enjoyed the first post that I read this much and I look forward to more.

    • Michael

      Thanks Doug, and thanks for making me your first comment! *proud* Sorry about the song, although I did wake up with Backstreet Boys in my head for some reason which, in my opinion, is a lot worse than Queen!

      I think more and more that the Game of Love is about gut feeling. Unfortunately my gut doesn’t seem to concentrate!

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