First Week Mixed Feels

So, time for the first weekend coffee of 2017.

While not anywhere near as bad as the first week of 2016 by any means, this week hasn’t entirely gone to plan as you may have guessed by our emergency brew on Thursday night.  At work we have grown accustomed to lack of job security; it’s kind of an ongoing joke that any one of us is going to get sacked at any minute.  Yet, having survived the pre-Christmas cull, I wasn’t expecting to only last a few days of the new year.

As it happens, my actual leaving date is 31st March, so I have another few months yet.

I’m still not quite sure what I make of it though.  There’s a certain relief because it’s been hanging over me for a while.  It’s been a long time since the company invested in me, so it might be nice to get out there and do some more learning.  Obviously, though, there is concern attached because I don’t know things like how long I’m going to be unemployed for.

The latter point raises some self doubt for me personally because, as I said in another post earlier this week, I traditionally don’t do well at things I have to apply for.  By good fortune or good planning, I’ve fallen in to most things I’ve done, so an application in itself presents a new challenge for me.  I back myself, but precedent doesn’t tell a great story.

Other emotions? Let’s go with excitement and confusion.  Excitement because I now have time to do things I haven’t done before.  It’s also a push to completely change direction.  I was sat in Starbucks yesterday thinking of my dream to own a coffee shop and thinking about how I could work in a coffee shop to get experience for a while.  But then how do I ramp up again if I need to if I do a career break of sorts?  There aren’t infinite possibilities but there are a lot, and I need to pick the right one.

Another interesting thing happened on Friday, the day after I was told I was leaving.  Let’s just say that I became a lot more clear about my expectations of others.  That sounds like a became an arsehole which isn’t entirely true, but when you know that it’s not going to be you completing things and taking them forward, it’s a lot to easier to tell other people that they need to start taking responsibility.

Moo Cat has said that he’ll move out if I can’t provide food.  He’s agreed to give me the benefit of the doubt while I still have a regular income but has made it clear that if any cheap discount store tat ever hits his dish, he’s off.  I did suggest to him that he could learn some tricks and we could join a travelling circus but he said that he we would rather just find a new home where he can sleep on a sofa.

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I can’t actually think of a lot more that happened this week.  I’ve started back on an exercise plan.  I am going ridiculously back to basics on this one and it’s depressing how much I’ve lost since hurting my back.  However, this one is for the long term so if I need to start further back towards the beginning of the road than I thought, then so be it.

So, may as well end with a feature that I hope not too many of my regular readers have missed since the Christmas festivities – Pokémon Go progress!  Many new Pokémon over the last few weeks.

So now I’m only missing an Elekid, Dragonite and three regionals to complete my Dex.  I had jokingly said that I could use my redundancy money to get those three regionals.  It sounds like a stupid idea, but it is an option!

Hope you’ve started the new year with a belter.  Till  next week.

Just say the word, we’ll take on the world
Just say you’re hurt, we’ll face the worst
Oh

I can see, see the pain in your eyes
Oh, believe. believe me and I have tried
No I won’t, I won’t pretend to know what you’ve been through
You should’ve known, I wish it was me, not you

And just say the word, we’ll take on the world
Just say you’re hurt, we’ll face the worst
Nobody knows you, the way that I know you
Look in my eyes, I will never desert you, and
Just say the word, we’ll take on the world

And it’s the fight, and the fight of our lives
You and I, we were made to thrive
And I am your future, I am your past
Never forget that we were built to last
Step out of the shadows and into my life
Silence the voices that haunt you inside

And just say the word, we’ll take on the world
Just say you’re hurt, we’ll face the worst
Nobody knows you, the way that I know you
Look in my eyes, I’ll never desert you, and
Just say the word, we’ll take on the world, we’ll take on the world

And nobody knows you, the way that I know you
And nobody knows you, the way that I know you
We’ll fight, we’ll crawl into the night
Into our world, we’ll go, with you by my side
The calm, before the storm, we’ll face it all

And just say the word, we’ll take on the world
And nobody knows you, the way that I know you
Just say the word, we’ll take on the world, we’ll take on the world

Take On The World by You Me At Six

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