A State Of Limbo

Evening.

So, if we were having a coffee this week I couldn’t really tell you where I am at the moment.

Friday was supposed to be my last day at work.  I’d known for a while that there was a chance that I was going to be offered another job; hell, I’d even been asked to write the business case for it.  As my final date drew closer, though, I wasn’t sure what was going to materialise.

I got a meeting invite for lunchtime on Wednesday which is enough to annoy me anyway because if I don’t have lunch at midday I get grumpy.  There’s a reason why that time is always blocked out in my calendar.

Anyway, I pottered off to HR to be confronted with the opening line, “we want to extend the date on your termination agreement until 31st December.”  There was no, sort of, “sorry for messing you around but we really need you to stay to help us out”… I asked some questions and said I’d let them know in 24 hours.

That time past and led to another sodding lunchtime meeting.  I said I needed to see all the paperwork because I didn’t feel like I had enough details – I asked for a job description and a redrafted termination agreement and suggested that, considering time was tight, why don’t we just agree to extend me for another couple of weeks / a month, pause to think, and discuss properly.

Friday morning, my supposed last day arrived, and they say they can’t give me a job description even in a month and there was no redrafted TA.  One thing led to another and I left the office on Friday saying that I was interested in the role but also providing a list of clauses that needed to be agreed to which couldn’t be done till Monday (tomorrow) and then I’d need a solicitor to check it all.

So, right at this point in time, I would appear to be without a contract of employment.  Technically speaking, I have a feeling I shouldn’t be in the office tomorrow.  However, it’s put me in to this awkward position because I don’t want an employment break and the intention of both parties is for that not to happen, it’s just that there’s some interesting legal stuff about not being able to back date things.

Kind of interesting.  It’s made the last week a rollercoaster because I haven’t been able to get my head on one thing.  I haven’t slept well which hasn’t helped when I need to be able to think clearly and I really just want to get some time away from everything except fun without it looming over me.

A few people think I’m stupid for wanting to stay after what has happened and, to an extent, I’d agree.  However, they’ve offered me a project I’ve wanted to do for 4 or 5 years and in the back of my mind I have this nagging voice telling me that I shouldn’t give up getting paid when it’s on offer.

I’m a pretty emotional person but practicalities are an important part in my decision making processes.  I “work to live” and, although (despite some vices) I don’t consider myself to be a particular spendthrift, there would be things I wouldn’t be able to do without an income.

And, yes, I understand that I’d be getting a redundancy package but I think a lot of people not in the situation see that as bonus money rather than a mechanism to see you by until another job arrives.  They think about what you could do with the money, like holidays, new toys… I see it as cat food and rent.

I’m figuring that I could always be waiting for the perfect job and turning down others because of one limitation for another, so I may as well take one that I know I want now and see what happens rather than waiting for the perfect storm that may never arrive.

That’s a lot of words about work, but it has really dominated this week.  I’ve tried to make the most of my weekend.

I caught two new Pokémon!

I clocked up the miles yesterday, going to Liverpool for the football (a great 3-1 win against Everton) and then driving to  Manchester.  We played pool and then went to one of our favourite restaurants (where we’re known) just to be told that it will be closing down next week, so they gave us dinner for free!

Today I actually played football myself, getting an entire half of a 7-1 win and, you know what? I really enjoyed it! It was a nice day, I was moving easily, I played pretty well, the game was played in a good spirit, and it was fun!

In the afternoon I walked past a miniature railway.  I remember riding it as a kid.  For some reason, I even remember the texture of the blue paint on the carriages and the feeling of moving past the bushes which felt oversized against the shrunken train.

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The weekend kind of reminded me of a time when I didn’t have to worry about earning a living!

Cut me up like a knife
And I feel it, deep in my bones
Kicking it high
But I love even harder
You wanna know?

I just wanna dive in the water, with you
Baby, we can’t see the bottom
It’s so easy to fall for each other
I’m just hoping we catch one another

Oh na na, just be careful, na na
Love ain’t simple, na na
Promise me no promises
Oh na na, just be careful, na na
Love ain’t simple, nana
Promise me no promises

Baby I think about you
And I feel it, deep in my heart
Maybe we just ain’t meant to be something
Maybe we are?

I just wanna dive in the water, with you
Baby we can’t see the bottom
It’s so easy to fall for each other
I’m just hoping we catch one another

Oh na na, just be careful, na na
Love ain’t simple, na na
Promise me no promises
Oh na na, just be careful, na na
Love ain’t simple, na na
Promise me no promises, oh

I just wanna dive in the water
Oh baby, we can’t see the bottom
I just want to dive in with you
I just want to lie here with you, oh

Oh na na, just be careful, na na
Love ain’t simple, nana
Promise me no promises (promise me)
Oh na na, just be careful, na na
Love ain’t simple, na na
Promise me no promises, no

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