The Depressing Coffee Share

Hello,

If we were having a coffee this week, I’d be having a free one because I’ve collected enough reward points.

I’ve done some really interesting things this week.  I saw a parrot:

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And I got a selfie with the Gruffalo:

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However, there has been a theme this week.  Any of you who may have been reading this blog for a while will know that, about 14 months ago, one of my best friends told me that she didn’t want to speak to me again, and she hasn’t.  For those who didn’t know, cutting a long story short, I found it really hard to come to terms with.

Things had been getting easier and now with work pretty much (seemingly, touch wood, whatever else) guaranteed until the end of the year, I was debating lowering the dose of the anti-depressants I’ve been taking.  For some reason, this week has been really hard on this front.

I started thinking about my ex-friend a lot, out of not very much at all.  Obviously there are always reminders one way or another, but this had been different.  I can’t explain how, just different.  I still really miss her.  It sucks being able to do nothing and I wish we were still talking and this week has kind of thrown everything back to not exactly square one, but certainly three or four.

It’s not that life doesn’t go on or anything like that, it’s just being able to ask “Hey, how are you?” and not being able to ask it, all at the same time, is horrible.

Add to this the fact that I’ve been woken up by nightmares for the last three nights and the week has finished on a rather sucky note.

The only time I’ve forgotten about everything was playing football this morning, when I had something else to concentrate on.  It was our captain’s stag party last night so most of the team who could actually turn up were worse for wear.  I ended up starting and am not fit enough to do so.  We lost 2-1 and weren’t very good.

My fitness issues crept up while I was sat at Anfield watching Liverpool this afternoon when I got cramp in my left hamstring midway through the first half! Some how my knee also now hurts but I’ve no idea how that happened.  It feels like it’s been an impact but I can’t remember anything.

What else happened this week? I did the first grass cut / mole hill flattening of the year.  Ended up going over the lawn 4 times having decided to get it as short as I can straight from the off this year.  We’ll see how long it lasts.

Finishing on a more positive note, any Pokémon Go players will know that it was a double XP event last weekend, so I evolved quite a few new ones!

I hope your week has been better than mine.  I’ll speak to you next Sunday, assuming that I stay awake long enough…

All that I want
Is to wake up fine
Tell me that I’m alright
That I ain’t gonna die
All that I want
Is a hole in the ground
You can tell me when it’s alright
For me to come out

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don’t know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times
And I gotta get to rock bottom

Walking around
With my little raincloud
Hanging over my head
And it ain’t coming down
Where do I go?
Gimme some sort of sign
You hit me with lightning!
Maybe I’ll come alive

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don’t know how I even survive
Hard times
Hard times
And I gotta hit rock bottom

Tell my friends I’m coming down
We’ll kick it when I hit the ground
Tell my friends I’m coming down
We’ll kick it when I hit the ground
When I hit the ground
When I hit the ground
When I hit the ground
When I hit the ground
When I hit the ground

Hard times
Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don’t know how I even survive
Hard times (hard times)
Hard times (hard times)
Hard times (hard times)

Gonna make you wonder why you even try
Hard times
Gonna take you down and laugh when you cry
These lives
And I still don’t know how I even survive
Hard times (hard times)
Hard times

And I gotta get to rock bottom

Hard Times by Paramore

 

 

 

Comments 1

  1. I wish it will be over for you soon. I’ve experienced something similar few times and since the second one I decided not to worry about it. I mean… when I’m not worth talking to for them, they’re not worth being sad for for me. Since then… I feel much better 🙂 But I believe that every relationship is different and sometimes it just takes time.

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